Hello, everyone!
I apologize for not having written in so long but a lot has been going on in my life and with my schooling. As most of you know, I am now 21 years old and a senior at Middle Tennessee State University. What a whirlwind of a year it has been already! I cannot believe that is it almost 2019 of my senior year of COLLEGE. Even saying that to myself sounds crazy, I swear I was only just a sophomore yesterday.
But Lydia, you may be asking, aren’t you excited to graduate soon and finally become an actual adult? Well, yes and no, I would reply.
Yes, I am excited to be done with having classes every day of the week and to actually get to enjoy my weekends instead of focusing them entirely on work or homework. I am excited to walk across the stage and look back on all the wonderful teachers, memories, and experiences I was gifted by attending MTSU. Soon I will be graduating with a Bachelor’s Degree in Interactive Media and a double minor in Women & Gender Studies and Marketing.
But no, I am not excited to dive headfirst into the world of adulting. Looking for a job, finding a new place to live depending on that job, bills, etc., not so much. I have already heard that as soon as the “real world” hits me that I will want to be back in school because going to work every day can become a routine and will make me miss sitting in lectures. Although I can tell you one thing is for sure, I will definitely not miss doing online discussion boards. If you’ve ever taken an online class in college, you know what I mean.
But besides me graduating soon, I would like to address something else that I can already reflect on at this point in my senior year and that is . . .
Friendships.
When I was little, and a more expressive child, I was proud to be able to make friends easily over nothing more than liking the same color or playing with the same toy as another kid. But in today’s society, making friends is harder than ever for me as I have changed from a more extroverted person to a more introverted person. Some of you may not believe me when I say this, but I am not as high energy or as loud of a talker as someone may think me to be. But even this far in my college career, I can tell you that no matter what I choose to believe, not all friendships are meant to last. People change their priorities, people move and graduate, and sometimes, people just change and fall apart. Sometimes it’s for the best and sometimes it just doesn’t make sense. But as someone who has been emotionally hurt over having a falling out with a friend, or being dropped and still wondering what all happened, I can still say that this issue is something that I feel I will have to deal with throughout the rest of college and probably for the rest of my life.
However, I am holding out hope that I will find people who care for me as much as I do about them and are willing to stick with me through the good times and the bad, and maybe I just haven’t found all of them yet. It may be a sad thing to say, but for my generation, it feels like trying to find true friends is an uphill battle that many of us continue to fight. We love to talk over social media and look good on our social media, but when it comes to being there for each other and telling each other how we really feel, we all just don’t want to feel rejected or alone.
I hope this catches you all up on how I’ve been doing recently with my senior year and in my life in general. As always, life goes on and I will continue to learn and grow as a person. Thank you for keeping up with me.
As always, be kind and caring to one another. Pet dogs at any time possible, with permission, of course. And I will see you later.